"Thought my situationship was headed for the bf/gf label - got abruptly dumped last night"

and other selected secrets/sparkles

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remember, in this context:

• secrets are the shadowy things that we want to share but might be tempted to hide because of shame/fear/social obligations.

• sparkles are the things that make you feel most alive - little moments of joy/satisfaction/contentment that you wish you could bottle up.

click here to submit your own secrets/sparkles anonymously anytime.

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loosely defined themes of the week: x

secrets

short & sweet/salty:

My best friend moved across the world and I'm feeling really angry about it.

It’s my 30th birthday today and I feel like my friends and family aren’t celebrating enough.

I'm going to a wedding soon and my bf is in the wedding party, which leaves me at the table with the other spouses/partners, none of whom I know. I feel bad that this is stressing me out and I don't want to be 'that guest'.

To the person who lost their dad 10 weeks ago and had to face Father’s Day: I was there a year ago. It’s okay for it to be foggy. You do not need to make sense of it now. Just grieve.

I just accepted a very good job and the thought of working there makes me panic.

I have a new crush and I can’t put him out of my thoughts during more than 5 min in a row.

After four years of being closeted at work, I’ve accepted a job in a queer-friendly space.

I’m so close to starting an affair. We are both married.

I’ve been talking & going on dates with 3 ppl at once.

I hate my best friend.

Thinking about quitting my job to be a SAHM but I’m scared how my husband would react.

To the person who is worried about being sick + afraid to tell others, you’re not alone!

Failed an exam, now I have to repeat my first year at uni - all my plans are wrecked.

One of my best friends is getting on my absolute last nerve.

I want to date, but I keep pushing people away. Feels like self-sabotage.

I’m considering starting birth control for my period and I’m terrified.

I keep having nightmares about my super healthy relationship.

I want to fuck the shit out of my “ex” god he is so fucking hot.

Finding a new doctor was causing my trauma to come up. Just ignoring my body’s red flags.

I’m going on a second date. Not sure if I like him or the attention.

Wedding planning makes me not want to get married anymore.

I’m fully obsessed with my life. It’s good news.

Filed for divorce finally and am asking my husband to sign papers tomorrow!!!

Having a natural miscarriage for a baby that I wouldn’t have kept anyway - feeling guilty for grieving.

I never wanted kids but I’m afraid I’m changing my mind and it’s scary.

I’ve had two abortions and now I’m starting IVF.

Unconsciously stopped taking my antidepress cuz it gave me really bad heartburn, I forget cuz I fear.

My dog ate 5 used tampons out of the trash and I just spent $800 at the emergency vet.

2 weeks from my due date and sooo tired of being pregnant. I hope I like being a mom.

I just came out to my family and my sister followed up by asking what the point of pride is. Hurt.

I’m really jealous of my friends who are in relationships.

I was stood up twice today.

I have a crush on my friend’s partner and hope they feel that way about me too.

I’m constantly scared I’m going to fuck something up at work and that I’m not good at my job.

I was disappointed when I had a negative pregnancy test, even though I don’t want kids right now.

My mom is in the hospital after an od and I’m so guilty for not checking on her.

I feel like my life should be more than it is.

I think I’m finding my route again and it is incredibly scary but incredibly peaceful.

I’m leaving my home country to live in Switzerland and I’m scared as f*ck.

I like someone new and I’m so scared.

A job I thought I would love is making me more miserable every day.

Someone I thought was my close friend booked her wedding two weeks before ours.

Trying to get a handle on chronic pain and it’s so hard and frustrating.

We decided to be one and done and I feel weird about it.

I’ve always had a crush on my coworker, kinda want to break up with my bf and ask them out.

I confessed my credit card debt to my husband and drained our savings getting out of it.

Planning my exit after my husband cheated - tried to work it out but can’t let it go.

I am struggling financially. HARDCORE! Stole some ground beef today, so my fam can eat.

Our cat escaped & it was my fault, I left the door open.

I’ve applied to 100+ jobs and I’ve become hopeless that I’ll ever get out of my miserable job.

I’m just realizing how codependent I am in my relationship. I want to be better but idk how.

Guy from HS reached out to me to reconnect, 3 weeks later he ghosted me, I felt really hurt.

I want to come out to everyone but I’m scared.

I think I might be losing my mind because of anxiety.

I just got promoted and I am MISERABLE in the new job.

Want a divorce.

I just moved into a new place w my bf but I think we need to break up.

I feel lonely even if I’m surrounded by people.

My sister’s bf hooked up w my granny (he’s 35, she’s 72).

My ex and I (from years ago) have talked a lot this year and I have no idea what it means.

I’m feeling really disconnected from all the people I love but I’m not sure if it’s real or just anxiety.

18k in CC debt and it’s overwhelming.

I feel very unstable without a scheduled therapy session.

I’m scared my low self esteem will prevent me from finding a permanent partner.

I keep spending money on stupid shit and don’t know how to stop.

The really bad air quality because of forest fires is really making my ecoanxiety act up.

I just feel so unbelievably lost.

I only called my dad on Father’s Day bc I was expected to & not bc I wanted to.

I resent my husband’s brother so much for walking out of our lives when he met his wife.

Really tired of spending time w family on vacation. Grateful for trip, but too much togetherness.

My sister’s issues with her body are triggering mine and idk how to be around her.

I’ve missed myself lately.

I want to get back with my ex but scared I’ll lose my family.

Found a lump in my breast. Scared but shoving it down.

Apparently I lack empathy in more situations and with more people than I thought I did.

I feel like my partner and I are in very diff stages right now and it’s hard to plan our future.

The abortion I had 10 months ago is just emotionally hitting me today.

I got a new tattoo weeks ago, and I’m scared to tell my mom.

I’m at a work conf this week and I can’t wait to skip sessions to explore the city.

Got a job 5 months ago but still living in a motel because I can’t afford the area. Losing hope.

I’m in debt and owe a lot of back rent and am scared of being evicted.

Miscarried but not sad, didn’t know I was pregnant.

I hate my sister in law. She is extremely competitive and I can’t live like that.

For 20 years I didn’t want kids. Now considering it bc I met a guy I really like.

I told my spouse I could handle their high-demand job. I don’t think I can.

I look forward to my chemo treatments because I get a short break from being a mom.

Just found out I’m pregnant. Terrified of whether to continue and the repercussions if I do.

Trying for a kid is so weird & scary. My body & brain are fried…no one rly talk abt it.

My best friend just got engaged to a man I can’t stand.

Nervous to accept an awesome job that will have me across the country from my bf of 5 years.

My boss wants me to apply to a promotion but I am applying to other jobs to leave.

I quit my job recently and I’m not looking forward to getting another one.

I fantasize about being w/ someone who would take care of me, even though I’m married.

I applied for food stamps.

I feel more attractive during my pregnancy than I ever did when I wasn’t pregnant! It’s great.

To the guilty w/ toxic fam - stay strong! Your peace is worth it. The though feelings come in waves.

I wish our friendship was not one-sided.

New grad. I feel so immobilized at the thought of applying for jobs and finding new housing.

I kissed someone else but I’m not telling my bf.

I’m struggling financially but no one in my life has any idea.

Reused a hotel linen bag as a trash bag for years & it was a delight. Hired cleaners and it’s gone.

I relate to this *a lot* - I’m so sorry it’s gone!

I haven’t even gone on a first date with this girl & I feel like I already have strong feelings.

I took a job on the other side of the country and I’m terrified to leave my home of 10 years.

My mom and I almost called for welfare checks on each other yesterday and that’s telling.

I’m constantly scared I’m sick but also feel like I can’t tell anyone abt it.

I’m scared I might never fully financially recover from quitting my job and opening my small business.

I’m really looking forward to therapy this week bc I can’t do this myself anymore.

My mom can’t give me her full attention on the shortest of phone calls and it hurts.

My friend told me I come in too strong in dating and honestly I’m hurt.

Married to a man but I’m bisexual and I wonder if I settled down too young to explore more.

Getting married soon. Mostly very excited but also anxious to become a “married woman”.

I have realised that I love, but am not IN love with my partner of going on 5 years.

I’m in a LDR and it’s all so new, exciting, and scary at the same time.

I hate my job and am gonna put in my two weeks without even mentioning anything.

My dad died 2 months ago after 2 year battle w/ cancer, part of me is relieved.

I’m trying so hard to hold onto a relationship that I should leave.

Had a 3 years affair with my sister’s husband (not proud of it).

I’m starting to feel really guilty for distancing myself from toxic family members.

Some BS happening at work and I’m sad, hurt, and scared. A ball of emotions.

I have been stuck in the Newark airport for 3 days, I went a little crazy (but didn’t get mean yay).

I have a feeling I might be pregnant but it’s too early to test.

Peonies are such an overrated flower imho.

Omg breaking my heart with this one!!

I’m delving into ethical nonmonogamy and it’s way better than I expected.

long-form:

To the person who submitted “ I’m ace and have never had sex or an orgasm. I want to have sex with my partner but I’m scared I’ll be unable to enjoy it. I don’t wanna be a disappointment.” As a fellow ace person who’s first experience with sex has been recent and struggles to have orgasms/recognize when I do, orgasms don’t have to be the end goal! I usually focus on the good feelings I have during sex, really enjoy the intimacy that comes with having sex, and find that the vulnerability brings us closer together. If you find yourself not enjoying sex, that’s also okay! Make sure to communicate that to your partner. I definitely understand the fear of disappointment and big hugs to you for being so brave. Just know that a good partner will be understanding of your fears, concerns, and insecurities about sex. I hope you both have and continue to have a lovely relationship <3

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sparkles

short & sweet:

An essay I wrote is a finalist in a writing contest! It's the first time something I've written has made moves :)

I'm taking a short story writing class this summer and was feeling major imposter syndrome. But when I started to draft my story idea, I fell in love with the characters immediately. Maybe I love writing fiction after all!

At age 19 I finally figured out how fun a handheld shower head can be. Too bad it’s just in a hotel room on a family vacation and not at home bc I wish I had a little more privacy, you know?

I just got a job offer and cannot wait to resign from my current toxic boss!!!!!!

My favorite cousins, who live in another country, are coming to visit next week and I’m very excited.

Him greeting me with a silly (and personal) nickname and a long hug in front of his friends.

Feeling like we’re in our honeymoon phase again four years later.

Told a friend that I loved her for the first time.

Recently came out as bi and going on my first date with a woman this weekend!

Talking tv with my long distance best friend.

I enjoyed therapy this week.

Simone Biles is coming back to competition!

My bf just asked me to move in and I’m really excited.

Having a girl’s trip with my mom and sister. This is the first time we have ever done a trip just us!

Hanging out with my daughter watching trashy tv.

I just received a big grant to prevent sexual violence. Feeling proud.

I flew out to the east coast to meet my dear friend’s brand new baby.

2023: got my drinking under control.

I’m 38 weeks and just purchased my first home. Feeling grateful.

Created a v beautiful report for work! Learning to (and getting paid for!) my creativity is v. fulfilling.

I got possession of my house today!!!

I found my dream job in my 20s and sometimes I wonder if I’m dreaming.

Played hooky with my 8yo nephew yesterday. He’s my best friend.

Our daughter found a leapfrog today in her pool and she rescued him.

Talked my spouse into a deadline for when we get our kiddo a cat.

I applied to test bake for a cookbook which is exciting and scary and hopeful!

My dad’s surgery was successful and is now cancer-free.

My best friend moves back to our town in a month and a half!!

My grandma, Nanny Pam.

My partner & I recently got engaged and are moving out to Portland.

I am feeling so much better of my depression. I am more present.

Saw two people chatting on a street corner; one jumping up and down with excitement.

Just feeling surrounded by love from friends & a life I’m cultivating for myself.

Planning a big international trip for the first time in years!

Me and my bestie are talking much better about our mental health!

We found out this week I’m pregnant with our first baby!

Shared my sterilization story with my friend who is considering it herself.

My grandma telling me stories about her life.

Shakespeare in the park with the boy I’m dating, with wine in actual glasses and cheese.

I see Taylor Swift Friday.

I had friends come in briefly without having cleaned my place first. Felt a little scary, but it went well!

I am FINALLY pregnant and can’t wait to share the news with my friends and extended family.

Drawing with crayons on paper table cloths at the local restaurant for date night.

Whenever my partner and I watch a TV show, we always dance to the outro music on the couch.

The boy I’m in love with laughs at all of my jokes.

My baby nephew said my name for the first time!

Realizing that I love being alone!

Bff mailed me my fave album on vinyl, a frog trinket, and homemade bookmarks.

Hearing my loved ones laugh. Especially my partner and my mom.

Started a bookstagram and I already feel so loved by the booksta community.

I’m visiting my family and I’m so happy. I think I’m ready to move back home!

Grad advisor said he was proud of me & lets take 10 sec to think about all I accomplished.

My best friend left an abuse relationship & I’m so proud of her.

My ochem grade being rounded up to a B.

After 7 years of chronic pain & 7 months of dental work I finally love my smile again!

It’s my daughter’s 2nd birthday. After a really hard year (and infertility) today feels v special.

Went to a job interview and started crying a little because I loved the place so much. I really hope I get it.

We are putting our house on the market today!

I finally passed my college math class after failing it 4 years ago!

I am finally dealing better with my anxiety and feel more present and deeply in love w my relationship.

I’m moving on Friday and I can’t wait to start over.

My wedding is Friday! My bffs I haven’t seen in years are in town for it :)

Just finished uni, accepted on my PGCE & focusing on my silversmith business I started.

Told my husband we are pregnant this morning.

I’m a student midwife and I assisted with my first birth this week!! It was magical!

Just spent 3 days hiking in the Rockies with my fiancee. It was a dream! I feel so lucky.

Leaving for my destination wedding today.

Starting a new job and falling back in love with maths.

xoxo,

your favorite becca

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