remember, in this context:
secrets are the shadowy things that we want to share but might be tempted to hide because of shame/fear/social obligations.
sparkles are the things that make you feel most alive - little moments of joy/satisfaction/contentment that you wish you could bottle up.
loosely defined themes of the week: showing up, moving on
secrets
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short & sweet/salty:
Sometimes I feel like the third wheel with my new boyfriend and his dog.
I broke up with my bf and slept with someone else (5 days later) and I don’t feel bad.
I found out I’m 5 weeks more pregnant than I thought. Feel so disconnected from my body.
I feel bad that i don’t go to repro rights rallies or protests but I’m learning to be an activist in other forms is just as valid.
I need to drive for my job. I have driver’s anxiety.
Set boundaries with family. Cried about it but proud.
Just blew up another good thing.
Feel like my life will be terrible if I don’t get into my dream uni & I don’t think I’m getting in.
I just got asked to do a friends w/ benefits and I’m in shock.
I think I've met the boy I'm going to marry. clearly we've both got a lot of living and growing to do on our own between now and sometime in the future, but I'm actually excited to see where it goes!
I just broke up with my bf of 12 years. Even though he sucked, sometimes I think I made the wrong decision.
long-form:
20 odd yrs ago I met a woman and had a huge crush. I knew I was a lesbian, but I wasn’t out yet and I was so fucked up because I was afraid to come out. She was a very manipulative and emotionally draining person but because I was so insecure I was OK with it or at least I accepted it. One night she essentially seduce me and we had a one night stand, which I did tell my wife about when we met. This friend remained in both of our lives on and off, but her controlling was not happening with me anymore because I was in a very secure and loving relationship. Recently, she pushed the envelope too far when she realize that she really cannot control me anymore and I wound up ending the relationship and I guess this is also a sparkle because since I ended that relationship, I feel so much lighter. I realized after I did it, that she was still trying to manipulate and control me and all the conflict I felt was because she wasn’t able to do it. What I’ve realized recently is that emotional and mental abuse can happen by people who are also just friends.
sparkles
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short & sweet:
I passed my dissertation proposal today!!
My ski team won our first race yesterday! Our girls (including me) swept the podium as well! I’m super happy and proud!
My friend brought me flowers, legos, and groceries when my bf fucked up. Girlies <3
Making your sugar cookies for my husband when he returns home after 2 weeks abroad!
Being silly with my fiance while cooking for no reason.
So, like, I’m in an art exhibition.
I was diagnosed with depression and my bf is so supportive.
After moving cross country 2 months ago, I finally bought a mattress. No more floor sleep!
A fun time visiting my bro and SIL who live across the country. They make me feel so loved and appreciated.
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xoxo,
your favorite becca