"i’m a grown woman who is still scared of auto flush toilets"
and other selected secrets/sparkles
remember, in this context:
secrets are the shadowy things that we want to share but might be tempted to hide because of shame/fear/social obligations.
sparkles are the things that make you feel most alive - little moments of joy/satisfaction/contentment that you wish you could bottle up.
loosely defined themes of the week: putting yourself out there, trying something new
secrets
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short & sweet/salty:
I think I might be in love with a co-worker I hooked up with and I’m so anxious about what is/isn’t going to happen
I haaaate my new boss, but it's giving me courage to apply for new jobs.
I’m in a happy sexless relationship of 5 years but afraid to bring up opening up the relationship (ENM)
My cousin is pregnant, and I don’t know how to act excited about it. Her husband started a fight at my wedding and hit on my other cousin the whole time.
long-form:
I’m attending a speed dating event soon (but chose the looking for friends option) and am considering another one (that doesn’t have that option). I wonder if I should try looking for a partner, but I’m not sure. Part of me wants to, but the other part doesn’t. My sexual and romantic orientations make it extra complicated when it is already hard to find someone normally. I rarely get crushes, so I’m worried I will let someone’s (and my) hopes up. I don’t know if it is worth to even try.
Let me just say: I’m so proud of you and it’s absolutely worth it to try.
I told my best friend that I have feelings for them and they responded kindly, but didn't reciprocate my feelings. It was disappointing, but I'm glad that I said what I was feeling and won't have to live with the 'what if' anymore. A couple weeks later, they met someone and announced their relationship. I haven't seen them so happy like this in years, as the dating world has not been kind to them. Part of me feels a little bit jealous because I wish it were me, another part of me is upset that I'm still stuck on this thought, and it's tough to balance that with how glad I am to see my friend so excited about life.
sparkles
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short & sweet:
The sun shining on the frosty grass.
I’m pretty sure I have a new best friend as an adult and they’re truly the best human.
I’m seeing SZA next month w/ my best friend and my sister and I’m so excited.
I’ve finally painted the room of my house the way I like!
I’m almost becoming a regular in my kickboxing class!
My senior dog is arriving in Hong Kong today and I haven’t seen him in 6 months <3.
^this one literally made me tear up thinking about the reunion
My fiance finally has a return date from his deployment!
Went to an afternoon tea w/ my s.o. and we loved it. Such a nice, gentle date.
Got to see a live orchestra perform my fav movie last night and it was magical.
My new therapist has a cute tiny dog that hangs out during the sessions.
I just took up crochet as a hobby. I’m proud of myself for learning something new.
Someone who interviewed me sent me a nice email about how they’re recommending me.
My small biz bakery was accepted into a weekly farmers market. Nervous but excited.
Congratulations!! That’s amazing! Baked goods are 100% my (and I think everyone else’s) fave part of a farmer’s market visit.
I finally have some inside jokes with my boyfriend’s parents!
I scheduled myself a random day off in the middle of the week and it’s lovely.
My siblings and I watched our favorite childhood movie last night. We laughed so damn hard.
Was it the scooby-doo live action movie (lol)? Because that’s my fam’s fave.
long-form:
Met up with the crush/masseur therapist today and we had a lovely, emotionally deep chat about our lives, our pasts and what we're going through at the moment. I felt really emotionally connected to him, and we also had fun. ;) I was so happy we had that time together I actually shed a few tears of joy on the way home and it felt really good.
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xoxo,
your favorite becca
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