"I never thought I would, but I feel like I met someone that’s close to 'my person'"
and other selected secrets/sparkles
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remember, in this context:
secrets are the shadowy things that we want to share but might be tempted to hide because of shame/fear/social obligations.
sparkles are the things that make you feel most alive - little moments of joy/satisfaction/contentment that you wish you could bottle up.
click here to submit your own secrets/sparkles anonymously anytime.
loosely defined themes of the week: Rekindled flames, the intensity of “forever”, surprise presents
secrets
short & sweet/salty:
Starting IVF soon for our second baby, and I am panicking about surviving the anxiety of the first trimester again. Or the trauma of more losses.
First year of marriage has been HARD. I don’t know if this was right for us.
My bf’s mom cheated on her 2nd husband & he left her, but the (adult) kids think she left him bc of his drinking problem/verbal abuse of her boys from 1st marriage.
Nursing/pumping is so hard & time consuming. I also have no idea how to emotionally end it.
I hate my job but my job requires me to publicly talk about liking my job.
I feel like I've never been happy and I don’t know if I ever will be.
I have PMDD and it’s so debilitating I want to run away from my kids and husband.
The only boy I’ve ever loved gave me herpes, I’m scared I’ll never move on entirely bc of it.
I’m scared I don’t have any workplace skills and I’ll be stuck as a nanny forever.
I broke up with my very toxic partner today and I’m hurting. I left a letter & blocked him.
Feeling extra lost right now, particularly with my friendships.
I don’t feel guilty about my cc debt but I wish I was doing better at paying it off.
My bf and I haven’t had sex in months. Still love him but I’m so bored by the sex.
Saw my ex with a girl this afternoon, feel so bad.
I hate my job and I hate my boss.
Hubs and I are having a baby soon and I wish I could make it so his parents never ever meet the baby.
Getting an abortion in one week.
I want my ex to still want me.
About to apply for my 3rd grad school degree in attempt to find new career again! I’m tired.
I worry I’ll never want someone who wants me.
My sister is coming to visit me for the first time in 8 years and I’m dreading it.
Start a new job tomorrow and I’m scared.
I just got married and suddenly the idea of “forever” is terrifying.
I was so relieved that I couldn’t have children.
I hate my future sister in law but I love my brother. It’s very frustrating.
I absolutely hate being a teacher right now. I just want to quit.
I still dream about my ex 13 years later. Happily with my husband for 10 years.
Daughter is almost 3 & I’ve felt so hideous ever since getting pregnant.
After 7 years I broke up with my bf and I’m not sad about it.
8 months later & I still want my ex to regret breaking up, and want me back.
Struggling with infertility and feeling hopeless and bitter.
I’m scared I’m falling in love too fast.
My best friend broke my heart and I am not sure we’re coming back from it.
My bff is about to call off her wedding and 7 year relationship.
I’m trying to feel like my life means something, but I can’t figure it out.
I’ve decided to leave academia after I finish my PhD in the spring! No clue what’s next tho.
SO many of my friends are in LTRs, and being the perpetual 3rd or 5th wheel sucks.
My grandparents are dying and I feel terrible.
Ex FWB (now platonic) messaged me while road tripping and my BF asked who that was.
I’ll never get better living with my sibling, and my mom will never be on board with them moving out.
I know I need to change jobs but I don’t know what to do next.
I am truly happy that I’ve kept my disrespectful older sister out of my life for 3 months now.
I got a faint + on preg test today. My life isn’t ready for a baby but I yearn to be a mum.
Having the hardest time letting go of being kinky while 7-1/2 months pregnant.
I feel like the really odd one out in a group of bridesmaids. It sucks & overthinking sucks too.
Money stuff really scares me and makes me feel inferior.
Texted my ex-fling, I can’t tell if he’s happy I reached out or just being friendly.
I feel like I made a giant mistake and I wish I had a rewind button.
I really hope my boyfriend and I are soulmates and together forever.
Bad infertility news. Now I feel selfish for wanting a baby since it will cost so much to do.
My husband is driving me crazy lately. We just seem out of sync.
I spend so much time wondering what life would be like if I chose a different path.
6 frozen embryos, transfer scheduled soon. Having major cold feet about parenthood.
I have a crush on my friend from synagogue but don’t want to risk the friendship.
My ex approached me about co-parenting because he wants a baby and I think I want to.
I can’t forgive my dad for his alcoholism. I feel bad about it, everyone wants me to.
Realized I’m bi this year.
I am in love with the best friend of my partner.
I wish my dad was dead - I’m an adult but I won’t feel totally free until he’s gone.
My mom is in a toxic/unhappy marriage. It hurts to see and I just want her to get divorced.
Had the house to myself for the weekend, spent it naked.
I ran into my ex on a walk in the neighborhood, turns out I’m definitely not over him.
Text from ex-fling coinciding with bf out of town and thoughts of incompatibility.
Got a new job and immediately fell in love with my new coworker who is dark and mysterious.
I move across the country in a week and have no idea what I’m going to do after that.
My MIL is driving me crazy.
I keep having sex dreams about a high school friend I haven’t seen in years even though I’m happily married.
I sometimes regret how I have chosen to let go of my personal dreams and become submissive to my husband to keep the peace.
I'm going to see Taylor Swift with my fiancee and have told no one except his family because my sisters & friends would be so upset that I'm taking him & not them. But he loves T Swift too!
It’s been years but I can now admit I’m jealous of my friend’s wife (I want him for myself).
I'm a therapist in residential care. Considering stopping service with one of my residents just because he smells so bad and I can't stomach it.
long-form:
My best friend is in the hospital with lymes syndrome and guillion barres syndrome, and i am so worried but i feel like i have no one to tell, i don’t want to cry to him about it because like he is having a hard enough time already like he’s is really not doing good and is probably gonna be there for a long time but he lives very far away from me and the hospital asked him if he wanted to see and priest and i am just so confused but i just don’t know what to say to him because all i want to know is what is going to happen to him and if he’s gonna be better but i can’t ask him all of that because i don’t want him to focus more on it than he is already. it is just so difficult for me so instead i don’t really respond to his snaps because i just get sad and confused and worried and it is all too much, i just don’t know what to answer when he says he’s feeling like shit and that his vitals are shit because i can’t even say it will be alright because i’m not sure it will it probably won’t even be alright and he is also sick and tired of hearing that he is really tough and doing great and going to be good again from everyone so like i’m just out of words and feel really guilty about it but i just can’t take it.
sparkles
short & sweet:
Messaging with a cute girl and I think I have a crush.
Perfect Saturday nights with my partner: Getting high + watching tiny desk concerts + having delicious sex.
I turned 30 on Monday and celebrated by seeing "Barbie" with my mom!! :)
I'm on PST and just finished at my most recent job that had me working EST hours -- yay for better schedules!! :)
I was laid off in May and just got a new job that I’m really excited about.
I went to NYC w/ my partner for the first time. I feel more and more in love with her and life <3
My cousin finally left her abusive partner.
Getting out of a 20+ year relationship after being cheated on for half of it!
My boyfriend surprised me with flowers on his way home from work this morning.
I’m moving in with my s.o.!!
Currently in disneyland AND saw taylor.
My teacher team is amazing and works together so well.
I’m getting married on Saturday!
Today I accomplished my goal to visit all 50 states by the time I turn 40!
Not ready to be pregnant with baby number two and just got my periooooood!
Writing my MOH speech for my bestie’s wedding.
Picking up a long distance BFF from the airport tomorrow for a weekend with more friends <3
My partner and I have decided we want to have a baby, it’s making me love him more than ever.
My son is coming home after being with his grandparents for a month!!!!
I have recently discovered my love for smut literature.
I’m 31 and just started my first job.
I went to the aquarium today.
I’m pregnant w/ twins after 3 miscarriages.
Had my first embryo transfer this week and I’m so proud of myself for making it here <3
We got comforting, relieving news about our rainbow baby’s health in utero.
I have four job interviews this week after not having any for a year!
I spend the weekend with my best friends and it was lovely.
My teenaged sibling filling me in on all the hot goss.
My partner of 10 years earnestly told me I am getting hotter as I get older.
My partner is beginning to take care of their mental health again!
I feel ready to have a baby.
My 4 week old slept alone in his crib last night after contact-only sleep/naps for weeks!!
MY BFF IS GETTING ENGAGED! Her bf just sent me a ring pic and I’m going to cry. So excited.
When a new friend’s mom invites u over for cake.
Seeing how well my mom and partner get along when mom visited this week.
Decided I’m officially going to start writing my book.
I’m falling in love in a way that’s truer than I’ve ever felt before <3
I got a date with a guy I’ve had a crush on since middle school!!!
We lost my husbands ring in the river for several days….and then had it magically returned!
I quit my toxic job!
Had the best sex of my life the other night that had to call in sick to work next day.
Defended my dissertation today!
I finally understand that my miscarriage was not a punishment.
My puppy has discovered that she loves to play chase together and it’s so sweet.
I’m moving across the country! So excited for a new adventure.
We’re having a surprise baby shower for my neighbor.
Felt a little lost after grad school but have had multiple offers. Feeling optimistic.
Finally getting to spend a weekend with my brother, without having to work.
My significant other is 2 months sober!
I have my (m) first boyfriend after being in cis straight relationships my whole life, it’s so fun and great!
Just made my first therapy appointment.
Got a new job with a 15k raise!
My coworkers went out of their way to get my shifts covered so I can take a mini vacation.
Ohio blocked Issue 1 yesterday!
I’m going on a weekend trip with my mom.
Finally quit my second job!! Looking forward to weekends doing NOTHING.
This is the first time I feel truly happy.
My adult cat absolutely ADORES my roommate’s kitten. It’s the cutest thing I’ve ever seen.
Ladies nite and girls Barbie date movie this weekend!
Met my OB today and she is gentle and kind yet honest and she honored my trauma.
I HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE WHO LIKES ME TOO.
Having a new hire say they feel like they belong on the team and are happy to be a part of it.
Several people have told me lately that I feel safe to them.
I PASSED OCHEM 2!!!
I get the house to myself for the whole weekend!
I just started selling my art as a vendor at art markets and it feels so good.
For the first time, I don’t feel shame when I have sex <3
Only 3 weeks left at my summer factory job - then back to school and having fun again!
I just filled out a request for a dog adoption.
I just had top surgery.
Taking 3 days off work for me <3
I enjoy reading other people’s sparkles.
Saw friend who I hadn’t seen since pre-pandemic, so much to catch up on!
I’m getting healthier and stronger and I can feel it and I’m so happy!
I got my dream job at a bakery and I could not be more excited.
Finding a FREE bench for our porch & reading abt weird architecture on our porch in the rain w a cuppa tea.
At a tech conference for work and feel like I have knowledge to contribute this year.
Mom dropped off some ice cream for me out of the blue - it was my favorite.
I left my 9-5ish job and moving abroad to a village to make art.
I just spent two full days with a close friend and it was quiet and perfect.
The weather was beautiful for our softball game last night.
long-form:
Obstetric consultant firmly telling doctor in another hospital that Abortion IS healthcare! I'm a midwife in the NHS and sometimes it's hard to find joy as we see it privatised and crumbling. This Obstetrician had just finished a really tricky cesarean where he saved a life. Another hospital calls trying to send us their abortion patient, he takes the phone from the midwife in charge and gives an empowering but kind explanation of how important abortion care is. Of course we still take the patient, we want her to have the best care possible, but he took 10mins to get across the point using statistics and studies. We were all bustling around on a busy labour ward hearing snippets of 'abortion is healthcare' and 'she deserves the same care you give everyone' and it just made my heart happy!
xoxo,
your favorite becca
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